Hmmm ... hari rasa terpanggil pulak nak mengomel pasal SOT BA RO... tahap kesabaran...why arr why .... people are not patience enough.... x boleh la benda yg dia nak tu dapat or what...nak marah jer..n sometimes dia x sedar yg dia tengah marah tau... if only dia sedar..sure dia kata eh...apasal akuu marah marah ni...benda yg x sepatutnya marah...isshhh aku paling x gemar bila org x tau nak reti sabar...SABAR La....
Talking about sabar, aku ni sabar ke...hmmm as this is my blog and like my diary...rasanya tahap kesabaran aku kalau Likert Scale tu ada sepuloh then i would rate or tick my level of patience is 10 "very d very strongly agree"why...sebab aku rasa susah nak rasa marah...and i think my frenz would agree also as people always say to me "kau ni..org dahbuat cam tu pon masih sabar" he he..sometimes people say " tu la ko ni, penyabar sgt, sampai org pijak kepala" ada juga yg cakap "tak elok kalau terlalu sabar, not healthy" ha ha..not healthy? not healthy!!? may be la kot!! i think it is a different situation..not healthy if you r tooooo obliging....but i did that too..to oblige people, but if they know what i am trying to do, exactly, i am not trying to oblige people, it is just that i hate to see people get hurt with my action and my statements..i dont dare to say to people..mcm mcm la...unless i really get mad TAHAP GABAN..
Pernah juga akuu rasa tahap kesabaran dah hilang and what happened, i scolded that women like nobody business...pas tu aku rasa serba salah...tu la yg aku x nak...u say something that you will regret for the rest of your life...sampai la ni aku ingat..bila terjumpa ngan dia kat mana mana...rasa bersalah pulak, and i think dia pun pura pura cakap ngan aku, and i think she hates me for that...Aku bukan x nak marah bila org buat kat aku "mcm mcm" tapi rasa x sampai hati nak "bagi" dia balik, tak sampai hati to "hurt" their feelings...Biar la org nak buat aku or hurt my feelings which is 'ALWAYS". The morale is...i dont want to be like them,, kalau depa tu suka sakitkan hati org tu...aku x nak jadi macam dia..suka sakit kan hati org..kalau depa tu like to say mean mean thing to me...i dont want to give back as i dont want to be like that...pokok nya...aku x suka nak membalas....rasa mcm x baik arrr buat cam tu...and at last people say..."u suka tengok org pijak kepala you" ok fine...sebab aku x suka nak pijak kepala org... wahhhhh!!!! bestnya dapat tulis ni...
But i dont know how people perceive me.. this is only my self-perceived... Boleh buat researh ni kan...but honestly memang aku x suka nak membalas apa yg org buat kat aku..Kekadang ada kawan ckp.."you ni..terlampau sgt, cam mana nak jadi leader ni" Yup...masalahnya aku pun x fancy kot nak pegang jawatan "leader" meader ni..Bukan x de wawasan.. It is just that, i am not ready to be a good leader mengikut lunas and landasan ISLAM..To be a good leader...kene adil, x der sikap "favoritism", "kroni"..mcm mcm la..and i think i masih ada sikap sikap tu semua,, its unavoidable even though u try not to. Dan ini semua x membahagiakan hidup aku.
So apa yg membahagiakan hidup aku ni ya...hmmm let's see. Am happy if i can fulfill all my children wishes... kalau x dapat nak tunaikan sesuatu apa yg diaorng nak..aku rasa ada benda yg x complete. Am happy if i can cook for them...dan kalau x dapat nak masak utk family...pun rasa bersalah mcm ada benda yg x complete lagi. But now...AKU BAHAGIA...tu yg penting...Anak yang baik baik, suami yang baik dan kehidupan yg amat sederhana.....TERBAEK..Ya ALLAH..semoga ia kekal dan berharap KEHIDUPAN yang lebih baik untuk hari esok dan esok ...insyaALLAH.. amin...
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