KIDDOS...

Hari ni rasa nak ckp pasal anak anak...hmm ntha kenapa feel like talking about kids today which i have many things to say which i macam dah jadi stok ayam ke daging ke yg aku simpan dalam peti ais dalam rumah.. Banyak, but i dont hv the time (time yg rasa rasanya macam dah x de ape nak buat dan kalau menulis pun x de apa yg nak dipikirkan, yg itu belum habis buat, yg ni blum habis baca, dan menulis tanpa ada rasa guilty buang masa, masa menulis..boley..faham ke tak ni).

Tapi hari ni walaupun ada banyak mende nak, buat nak tulis, nak check, nak observe, nak focus, tiba-tiba Instrument si McCroskey tu buat aku jadi bengang.  Si McCroskey dah tua sgt ke sampai dia kata instrument SOCIOCOMM tu boleh pakai jugak utk measure MCS aku tu.. Cish..tu yg aku bengang dan bengang dan x tahu apa nak buat. Rasa nak talipon jer mak saleh ni dan tanya.  Dah email tanya kat dia pun, masih the same answer..YES u can.  Ha haa...buat aku rasa cam aku lebih pandai dari dia plak.  Impossible la plak kan..but nothing is impossible..what..kat org putih la.  The thing is,Soheh  instrument sociocomm tu x serupa 100% dengan MCS.  Ape dia dah lupe ke atau aku yg x nampak.  Dah berkali kali aku baca Instrument sociocomm tu..masih rasa totally different dari MCS.  Cam ner ni.  Nak tanya supervisor pun...hmmm...no KOMENG!!!

Hmm dah lari ni dari bab anak anak.  K..Anak anak ni mcm macm perangai..bila dan memang dah lama aku perasan kot, memang anak anak ni, cam mana pun akan ikut style mak bapak they all.  Cam tu gak la ngan anak anak aku yg comel comel with their own ways. Academically, aku memang bertuah dapat anak anak (ceh nah puji sket ni. sebab x penah puji anak anak depan org, dlm blgo ok lah.  siapa baca sorry bukan nak riak, cuma this is what i feel) yang memang nak kata sampai ke tahap gaban genious x la plak, tapi sucessful chilren la jugak.  It's like one in a million ok la 500 kot to have kids yg memang success in any of their big exams, upsr, pmr, spm.  So far tiga tiga anak aku yg pompuans tu achieved excellent grades.  Bangga tau..cuma aku x penah bagi tau org je.  Bila org ckp anak ko pandai pandai gy, aku jawab semua org pandai, bukan anak i jer...tapi the compliments sempat buat aku rasa bangga dan kembang sekejap.  Time kasih la kat anak anak for giving me the opportunity to feel that way.  Cuma x nak nampak ketara kekembangan tu.  Malu. tapi bukan malu pasal anak aku tu, malu sebab aku bangga konon... ha ha..apa ntah.... InsyaALLAH, sebab i never fail to pray for their success and SELALU diperkenankan oleh NYA. Alhamdulillah.

Anak anak ni pulak, ada macam mcam kerenah tau.  With that kerenah lah your life becomes more beautiful, colourful and challenging in a positive way.  Some of the characteristics are 1) yg menyejukkan hati, 2) Yang sgt baik hati, 2) Yang x menyusahkan mak bapak 4) yang protective dan ada banyak lagi...These are some examples that i can find in my context.  alhamdulillah aku dapat anak anak yg baik. (depan mata la..belakang..hanya tuhan je yg tahu, which i am positively sure to have good kids) .  But... yes.. i know, kita x tau lagi masa depan. Now and currently memang ok.   Kekadang terpikir, nak ke anak anak ni jaga kita masa dah tua nanti, masa dah tua shj x pe, tapi masa kita sakit nanti.  Nak ke dia jaga without hesitation, like me (ceh wah) memang cari peluang nak jaga ibu bapa/mertua.  Memang challenging, jgn ingat senang nak jaga org tua ni.. I've been there and done that.  Sgt sgt challenging tahap gaban.  So anak anak boleh ke buat cam tu. And i think it is a BIG TRUE bila org kata "org tua ni sgt sensitive, cuma bezanya how d individual take it seriously and how to cope "with it.

Entah kenapa, now i hv that kind of feeling, but i'll try my best to cope with it.  Sometimes whenever, u hear what u r not supposed to hear from your kids, it will make u feel so "sensitiv thp gaban". But alhamdullilah i always say to myself, ingat, jgn jadi org tua yg sgt sensitive n think positively.  I think that makes me to cool down a lil bit even though u feel like spelling it out.  Honestly,...eh apsal citer pasal aku plak ni..ok..anak anak.  balik kepada anak.  Hari tu aku tersentak jugak bila anak aku RASA aku x appreciate her successfullness...mak aii...tamparan hebat tu...Hmmm memang betulla aku x tunjukkan sgt keriangang dan kegembiraan aku depan dia.  Learn a new lesson, pls express it clearly and make it obvious next time puan rozila...mengajar dalam kelas pandai sgt ckp ngan anak murid, express your  true feelings...bla bla..diri sindri...ha ha..x tau nak buat.  Ok...silap aku.  Tapi pandai plak aku express my hapinness kat laki aku tu.  he he.. pemalu ke ape aku ni.  To my children, rmember this..."ALL OF U HAVE NEVER FAILED TO AMAZE ME WITH YOUR AMAZING GRADES"   really.  Aku selalu ckp ngann anak anak aku, kalau dapat grade yg x bagus, tapi dah berusaha, x per.  tapi kalau dapat grade yg x bagus, tapi x berusaha...ha ha  memang nak kene pelempang ayah korang..

Org selalu tanya, cam ner anak ko boleh pandai eh gy.. Entahlah, bukan pandai but they work hard and smart for their success.  Tapi dalam hati selalu aku jawab.  Masa kecil, aku jarang atau sekali dua sahaja bagi preserved food, selalunya aku usaha masak sendiri, with all the healthy ingredients, freshhhhh sayur-sayuran, beras, chicken, meat, enchovies, fish and whats not and cook with love bak kata laki aku.  Aku x suka beli fast food for my kids.  I make sure i'll sit with them while finishing their homeworks.  Berapa ramai parents yang ada patience to sit with ther children doing their homewords and revisions.  Boleh kira kot.  No TV selagi x habis homeworks dan yg paling memenatkan tapi berbaloi buat revisions masa nak exam... Adoiiiiii...sabar aku boleh dikatakann tahap gaban jugak.  Ramai yg x sanggup buat satu ni. 

Masak..hmm ramai juga mak mak yg kureng masak kat rumah.  Ye la banyak duit ... beli je la.. buat apa susah susah masak.  Ramai yg kata cam ni kat aku.  Memang betulla..(again i always answer the questions or make statements in my heart) takut aku jadi riak bila berckap kat org)  Memang senang beli jer.  Tapi mungkin x sedar kot, if you cook for them, they will get closer to you.  Orang kata air tangan mak ni yg penting.  Kalau asik makan kat luar dah tentu tentu la anak anak  ikut perangai org tukang masak makanan kat luar tu ..Make sense kan.  But again x semestinya.  Ada juga yg suka membeli lauk tunjuk tunjuk tu anak anak success gak... tapi cuba tengok dari segi lain...Ada yg suka melawan, ada yang macm macam la..Tapi ada gak jadi anak yg betul betul solehah ... Itu rezeki yg tuhan bagi.  But for me... makan diluar hanya utk mencapai tahap kepuasan quality time with the kids.  Untuk membina insan... ceh...baik lah masak..dan sambil masak berdoa utk anak anak..bacalah selawat masa nak basuk makanan makanan tu, bacal al-wadud banyak kali masa mengacau lauk, menggoreng ikan...memang mujarab..so far.. alhamdulillah.  Bukan masak main hentam jer... Masak dengan penuh kasih sayang kata laki aku lagi.  End product nya... hmmm memang puas hati..anak anak yg baik, dan makanan yg x sedap pun jadi sedap..

Tapi..

Ya lah..anak anak aku bukanlah malaikat..baik baik 100%.  Ish malaikat la kalau cam tu.. Ada gak characteristics  yang aku x setuju.  But then, again, itulah part part yang challenging nya.  Bayangkan kalau anak anak sgt baik, x de satu pun yg tidak menyenangkan...wah....malaikat ke ape..dan siapalah aku ni yg mendapat tahap yg tinggi sekali cam tu.  Tapi characteristics yg challenging tu biasala...semua org pun ada...malah memang ada dalamm diri aku dan ayahnya, and again, thanks to my children for giving us the opportunity to face the challenges that makes us become stronger and mature in raising children.  Kalau x...susah gak...

lagi satu....bila anak dah membesar.  Masa dia kecil kita risau, masa dia dah besar pun kita risau gak..with the life that they are going to face.  Ha ha..sambung la nanti...aku dah dapat satu idea untuk buat instrument aku tu.. so better get going with the instrument first before lupaing what am gonna do with it.  ;} 

cerita ini hanya utk saya dan anak anak saya dan tiada niat utk meriak atau membuka pekong...he he...to my hubby, ayang melayang..

First, I was dying to finish my high school and start college
And then I was dying to finish college and start working
Then I was dying to marry and have children
And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough
So i could go back to work
But then I was dying to retire
And now I am dying
And suddenly I realized
I forgot to live

Pleased dont let this happent o you
Appreciate your current situation
and enjoy each day


Friends

To make money we lose our health
and the to restore our health we lose our money
We live as if we are never going to die
and we die as if we never lived...

xxxx....

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH

OBFUSCATE!!!

Talking and thinking about Maal Hijrah i have something which i longed to confess.  Well.... i dont know whether this is the right time to write about something that i longed to write.  The "thing" really makes me feel so obfuscate.  I like her n i love her but how come i dont adore her.  Obfuscating isnt it.. yeay... i know..d felling is like so..d very frustrasting when u cant tell her anything, but why.....and it bugs me all d time, whenever i think of her.  Does she really plain innocent or she knows about it but still wants to do it, or she doesnt realize what she says or does or thinks really like " you dont walk the talk girl".  Infact, everytime when i think of what she says , it makes me feel ..what's the big word huh...hmm "intricate and convoluted".  Yeah..that's it.

This is what i think of her

1.  Sgt sombong kekadang which she doesnt realize

2.  Sgt riak kekadang, which i dont know whether she realizes it or not or sengaja or x sengaja

3.  Sgt "mean"  kekadang, which she doesnt walk the talk

4.  Sgt "bangga" dengan benda yg x sepatutnya dibanggakan, which i think she doesnt realize it also

5.  Sgt "perasan"  all d time...which i hate it. ha ha...jealous ke ape aku ni..but at this age, am positively not jealous, but i feel pity for her for not "walking the talking" he he..very intricate scenario...

Kawan ku...aku berdoa....salam MAAL HIJRAH.  Wait....tibe tibe aku rasa dan aku tau, aku pun memang ada kekurangan..banyak.. but..really i pray for her hijrah! and i'm going to hijrah also.....

MEDLEY

MCM MCM

A view from my desk!

Wow, it has been hmmm 2 months kot, x de mood nak tulis pe pe pun dalam blog ni.sampai dah lupa password.  Asik baca blog org je..Nak kata sebuk, x lah sgt, sebok dok layan burger shop yg anak aku si shasha b bagi tu..hishhh....mengacau tul mende tu. sebab x abis abis lagi.  Tapi cam sebuk gak lah minggu cuti sekolah melayan anak anak ni.  Nak pegi situ nak pegi sana, nak makan tu nak mkan ni..blum part gi cuti lagi..Baru balik dari Tioman..best gak tempat tu tapi yg x best, panas giler masa dua hari yang memang aku rasa nak sgt gi snorkeling, berendam dalam yg teramat jernih cam air sejuk kat umah.n d worst part lagi, macam x nak balik bila cuaca tersangatlah besssst utk berendam dlam air at the time we wanted to go back.  Hishhh selalu cam tu tau..benda yang kita nak selalu x jadi bila kita nak that thing happens at dat moment. he he ...budget cam plan semua boleh jadi je.. Well...xpelah..things dont quite happen as we planned. Sebokkan! dah lah nak pergi tioman, jauh cam nak gi US, mcm fly sampai dua hari, penat, sakit tengkok dibuatnya.  tapi one think for sure, berbaloi baloi, had a great quality time with the 4 monsters n hubby of course. Cuma kene tahan je lah nak melayan kerenah anak anak tu, ada yg ok, ada yg emo, ada yg grumble dgn benda yg senang je nak solvekan, tapi saje nak grumble, ada yg merajuk lah..ada yg muka masam suka suka je bila nak masam muka, aissshhh macam macam lah..nasib baik tahap kesabaran aku ni agak tinggi sket..kalau x, dah lama aku jadi mak yg suka marah marah anak walaupun x puas hati sket pun. Heyyy korang patut bersyukur tau,,mama x cepat naik hantu. Sure qist tanya ..naik hantu tu cammane?

Lepas tu rasa cam x sempat je..minggu ni, nak bawak iin mkn kat tupai tupai, pastu dia kata nak makan pizzza plak..teringat janji nak bawak gi mache', pastu nak beli barg barg asrama lagi, blum bab semekut nak bawak balik kat KT tu..bila nak gi ni?. Pastu shasha b pun berhajat nak gi ke ICT town tu..bila nak gi semua ni.  Hmmm pakat kene makan anai-anai je lah articles aku yg dah lama masuk dlam beg, konon nak bawak gi tioman nak baca, tapi x baca, dan berangan nak baca kat umah, tapi x baca.  Beg yg pnuh ngan articles tu, jadi penumpang setia dalam kereta kot, pergi keje dia ikot, tapi x de org baca, balik umah dia ikot, pun masih tinggal dlm kete, x kluar kan.  Nak sedap kan hati kata tunggulah cuti sekolah habis, bley start baca articles balik, sambung mende mende yg dah terhenti..nthah ingat lagi ke x apa yg nak dicari, dibuat, ditulis, dibaca..hmmm phd phd....kenapalah aku gatal sgt nak buat phd ni. Asik dok kira articles je tapi x baca...wargghhh!! bile mood nak sampai ni.  Next week!..next week? betul ke ni..Insyallah..ckp pada diri sendiri.

Hari ni honey lak nak blanja makan..hmmm hampeh lah diet aku..baru semalm stat, Nak ikut GM Diet konon.  Tapii semalam dah ok dah..Hari pertama..makan buah je, kedua sayur je..So patutnya hari ni jadi vegetarian, tapi honey nak blanja kat "pondok sate" plak...cam mane ni...So contemplating ni..nak terus kan diet ke tidak..rugi.  semalam dah lah makan buah je..pastu ada lah rasa sket sayur dari meehoon kungfu yg shasha beli.  sket je..ok lah tu.   Tak pe,, makan sayur je, malam mkan daging sket..he he...GM Diet apa ni..Nak gi jogging pun cam x sempat. walaupun rasa cam sempat semlm..tapi agak malas plak sebab cuaca mcm nak hujan.  So, blum decide lagi nak buat apa minggu ni..sebab banyak sgt mende nak buat....1 thing dat i hv decided ye la...temporarily shut my articles, see you next week! Layan jelah anak-anak sementara depa ni kat umah.

Hmmm..idk how to describe d feelings now.  My hubby said.."i pulak yg terasa nak sunyi kalau iin x de"  well to teach her to be independent we have to let her go and let her discovers the outside true colours or others and even the world.  I hope she understands that we just want d best for her...Get her out of her comfortable zone and box.  Mama n Ayah always pray for your success n be yourself, SMILE :) ALWAYS and we know u can do it...

pee hech dee

Its 12.30 am, watching "No Limit" concurrently FBying and feel like revealing something in this blog.  To say it's a lonely journey...naaah!!!! havent feel it yet..missssarable journey... yahhhh!!!!but the pain is enjoyable one.   It's so funny coz the more u know the more it becomes complicated.  It's like..u feel good even u get only a pinch of it and get something to scribble down (so far dua patah perktaan pun aku happy giler) and useless if you dont.  Cam makan cili padi, lagi pedas.. lagi berselera.  Feel like TQing  to my Bfren, shereen who always makes me wonder how things shud be thought n the rhetorical questions that pop up from her till d end.

My one n only supportive hubby who never complains even badan pun dah gemok melampau, who makes me laugh all the way n perghhhhh banyak menolong..my children..hmmm cute mcm mcm kerenah challenging betul..i think becoz i really want them to know dat i really do care in whatever they are embarking.  idea dah x de.  that's it.

BLANK

arghhhhh!!!!! i just don hv d time.. somehow i'hv been abondoning this blog nnnn jeng jeng my ivdvmv. banyak benda kot dlm kpla otakni.  Dat module thing really wasting my time but hv to do it.  It has been 2 weeks dok godek mende tu. Tot has given the template dat cud make my life easier but..people don just get it.  Maybe  it was my fault also..takut sgt nak bagi tau..the problem is bukan takut, rasa cam x sedap la to tell people to do it again...ini masalah besar saya...so yg merananyer saya gak la..( a huge sighhhh!!!).  Ha ha  dah sedar dah,,tap wat lagi.. Shereen slalu cakap, kak ogy ni..bagi tau je.. he he...ampun, when can i grow up?  How i wish i can just say it out loud....but sometimes i feel like people would understand n u don hv to spell it out.  N we always say kalau dia buat x pe..kalu aku buat...mampos!!!!!!..

whoooshhh!!!!!!!!!

suddenly i feel that i dont have enuf time..

which one 2 do first!!a lot of things coming in lately..

plss  give me the strenght that i always have.

somehow it's gone..gone..gone. 

I need the strenght and will power.

TomoC oh TomoC

hishhh!!! siTomoC dah beranak dah...1st time tengok live telecast from samudera avenue, cam tikus.

Weiiii tomok, dah jadi mak dah ko...Ada lima ekor, satu putih cam snow, dua hitam giler, dua lagi sejibik cam mak dia la... ComoT

Congrats 2 TomoC..,,X sia sia gi kelas LAMAZ... terchungap-chungap.. Bella cam jeles giler

MY ASAM PEDAS

Mali, Intan, Salmah, Me, Loy, Yah, Ne
sorry lyn masa ni hang blum sampai lagi

So... baru ari ni i hv the time to write sumthin' bout my 2nd reunion 1/1/10. Wish came tru'.  Semua geng ade kot.  The ten of us, cuma Ipap saje yang x de.  New info dengar kata kawin ngan Adi Jagat.

Heard this name before.  If you happen to read this ipap, do contact us. 

Loy, can't wait to hear yr typical mother's attitude.  Derma lah emas tu kat kitorang.

Yah cool cam selalu tapi kalau siape yg paham cakap dia, sure klakar, ada udang sebalik mee.

Intan salmah....rindunyer...x berubah, mcm dulu, d best thing masih x suka mengumpat org..ha..ha....bila nak jadi cam die ni..aku pun x suka gak, tapi kekadang setan tu dtg gak.

Mali, ceh wahh...wanita umno sorang ni..what a speech..i  like it.

Intan,.. wei bila masa budget nak surprise dgn kek tu hah!!!tapi best arrr, ade kekkkk,,,,

Ne....rindu arrr, ishhh x sangka dapt jumpe ne after 28 yrs.

Lynn.... dia yg paling maintain dressed to kill...aduhai, but she was so quiet on that day.

Myself.......:-}

Visited Ecah after lunch.  I really envy with her patience.  Idk whether i can do like wat he does right now...Isteri yang solehah.  Wish her hubby get well soon.

Geng, tengok-tengok le pic ni ya....